Last month of the year

I know I haven’t been blogging much about my personal life or anything interesting over at blogspot or here, I js don’t see the need to. But because earlier on I js posted something emotional, here I go, the last early wrap-up for 2011, which I had been doing this everytime when something is coming to an end.

At the beginning of the year, I already reckoned that 2011 will not be so smooth-sailing for me. Not a forecaster but I js knew it, like the woman’s sixth sense. And it’s pretty true when I looked back to months ago to the terrible things that had happened to me. But of course, life has its ups and downs, though I had a rough road in the middle of the year, but there are definitely times that are really cool, especially during the last quarter of the year.

Let’s see, the good side of 2011: I travelled, twice, Phuket on March and Hongkong during July. Really happy to be going to places and checking things out. The world is js amazing I swear. Also, I graduated (uh-huh finally!) and getting enrolled into university (pfft, which got me into sleepless nights and insomnias). I joined (uhm not very proud to be saying this but) 2 competitions this year; Floor The Love with Cherie my bim and sadly got into Top 16 only, which I really wanted to go further, but guess I wasn’t good enough yet, and Suntec Dance’11 with my crew mates. However, I really love Momentum 2011’s performance. So glad to be doing waacking, dancing to Michael Jackson’s Smooth Criminal but in David Garret’s violin version (screams!) it was a truly dope experience. Best and considered, my last performance. Putting aside dance, I got this part time job at MDS and made good friends! (I mean, how often could you find someone whom you can get along so well with?!) Last but not least, getting a new bf (,which was considered the most exciting roller coaster ride I have taken among the real roller coaster rides)

So the bad side, I still hasn’t really accomplished anything yet (not in dance nor work or studies, most importantly, not in my life, yet). I didn’t manage to pursue my dream (to be an air stewardess). My memory is really very bad nowadays (and I wonder if I will forget you guys one day?). I’m friends with Captain, no longer a bf-gf status kind (it’s a bad thing cuz after 2 years + and that’s the outcome?! seriously? yeah. serious.) I am becoming more conscious with how I feel in this family and getting to emotionally-involved with them (and that really hurts more than a bitch-slap in the face). Lastly, I kept feeling like a total loser (because I didn’t see myself succeeding yet when everyone around me is excelling in something. at least s o m e t h i ng).

Sigh, so much for 2011. It’s still early December now but I’m already hoping for a fun and happy Christmas and New Year and also praying hard 2012 will be alot better, please oh please..

Till then.. if there is any.